The Radiant Writings of UV

I can't give up on people. Why you ask? It's my mind that rules my thoughts. My fucking ingeniously stupid mind! It never lets me give up, ever. Many a person have come into my life, some have stayed, some have abandoned me, and some I have abandoned. But, all have left memories, memories that I regret or love, or both. Some have been formative, defined who I am. Memories that have shown me how to live a life, may it be the distant memory of the class-trip to Nepal or the recent Wall Art Festival/noco Project memories. All have defined me in someway or the other. This is the reason I am unable to give up. People, knowingly or unknowingly, make me who I am, define what I am, show me my positives, indicate my negatives. They judge me, abuse/misuse me, take my heart and throw it into the gutter or trample it. But, they may also protect it with their life, give me the love I long for. I am happy to have found the people that exist in my small bubble of knowledge. T...

Disclaimer: This is again a poem that I wrote during my recent love-related experiences. It does not have much bearing now, but I love it somehow. I hope you enjoy it too! Things have not been right I'm faltering to reach the light The light that will cut me up And then tear me to the core There was a time I felt unloved Which someone tried to undo I broke their heart instead Oh, what a silly agony to bear! They are happy I hope Found the one to fulfill their longing While I sit writing this The unsung side of a story no one hears The story of an anxious boy Dying to see the light of day All he did always T'was hope and pray The boy who never left home Fearing the claws of the doom The doom that only awaits  Awaits for someone like him

Disclaimer: This is regarding one of my recent experiences with love and the lack of it. This was one of the poems I wrote at that time. The person I wrote this for, I never got to know them. Although it doesn't have much bearing right now, it's a memory nonetheless. Saw a person, a candidate Told my heart, hold on, wait! This may be a trap date You know what happened that fall late Said I will take a chance Heart pounding at every glance The picture of sophisticated grace The smile that could melt the toughest face I need to know you But I better not haste I've seen what happens When on the other side of the gate Now I wait as my heart pounds Every time the phone rings the tone aloud I don't know why they won't reply I think I am being silly, ain't I?

Farther in the dark I saw a blind man sing He was a pauper He was a kin He sung a melody  The melody's all I recall The melody like a pearl A pearl in the sea He wanted nothing  Not a thing from me But only a promise that I'll just be Go home, go home  To the mercy of your God To the light that calls To the things you grew up for Then, he disappeared  Taking the darkness within Leaving light, only light there And that's all I recall

You're unborn, with a small beating heart Someday you'll fall apart Just an empty space for a heart I'll be there to caress you when you cry For I know how it feels To see a little part of you die I promise to shelter you with me To protect you when you need And then make you heal But I'm a mess too Born to impress not just a few Frolicking in desires like the rest But there's none left I have been a fool Loathing the merriment Garnering the heart for the blessed Oh! I'm indeed a mess You're an unborn mess Soon you could be On the path to becoming like the rest Now, I don't know what to feel Is it of worth to bring you in? Is it right to let you go? I am not the enemy nor a foe Ending you now could be the answer To save you from all that's out there One mess less May make the world indeed a better place